now that im a graduate…

March 24, 2006

GRADUATION DAY!!!

Dearest Mommy and Daddy,

While I was thinking about the things that I would like to say in this letter, it just suddenly dawned upon me that this might probably be the first real letter that I have ever written to you guys in my 19-20 years of existence! Whew! And because of that, I’m having a difficulty trying to let go of the right words to say…

          I’ll probably start with THANK YOU. I know life hasn’t been all easy for our family…And I also know that if it were not for God’s constant blessings upon our lives, I would never have had the privilege of going to such high-end schools such as Assumption and STC.  Aside from the prayers, I also do know that there were things that you really had to sacrifice to be able to give us a good education. You might think that we never really think about these things but we do. I do. Which is why I admire you so much. You always have ways of making miracles possible in our lives—although I know it really is God working, but the thing is, I never really felt that I lived an uncomfortable life. And it’s all because of you. I am blessed to have parents like you ma and dad.  Thank you…

          Secondly, I’d like to say sorry…I haven’t been exactly the perfect daughter—eldest daughter to be exact—lately, and I’m sorry for that. Sorry for the many times that I’d try to rebel, or answer back or simply disobey. I know I do things that hurt you sometimes, and I’m sorry. I truly am.

          Ma, dad, I know that despite the distance that we have because of my schools, I know that you were always there. But let me tell you too that although I tried to make you believe that you knew everything that happened to me, you didn’t. But I know that you have always been praying for me, and I think that’s more than enough. Let me just share that in those growing years that you never really witnessed in my life, I learned a lot of things. Many of them I learned the hard way, and often times I’d find myself say “if only I have listened to mom and dad.” But I never told you because of my pride. I wanted to be strong on my own, and to be independent. And I guess I became all that too. But I also would have wished that you saw me through it all. No regrets though, because I have learned a lot.  Ma, dad, I’ve had so many achievements in my life already that I really would have wished you would have seen. Plays, events, and many others where I believe I was able to give glory to God’s name. I just want to say that although I was fulfilled at these successes, it was not really complete because you weren’t there to share it with me. Do not think that I am blaming you. What I mean is, in every success I achieved, I always wished that you were there to witness them and that you were there to share it with.

          I guess that is the reason why I have become so attached to my friends. They tried to fill in on the areas where you couldn’t because of the distance. I’d like to share my friends with you too, ma and dad. They’re all so wonderful, and they treat me like I’m part of their family too. God is so good that He always blesses me with wonderful people whenever I search for a family that is very far from me.

          Now that I’m a graduate already, I look forward to catching up on all the things that we have missed on on each other’s lives. I’ve missed you and I’m excited to having a long stay with you too. But I hope you would also understand me if I’d like to pursue a career in Cebu. I’ve gained a family here whom I do not wish to leave all of a sudden. And I believe that so many opportunities lie here for me. But do not worry; my mind is not yet closed. Like you, I am still praying to God. I am praying that He will show me His plans for me after graduation. Because after all, the best plan would always be His plan.

          Thank you also for constantly reminding me that there’s a God Who never fails to hear us all the time. Many times I’d find myself struggling and many times He never failed to help me. I know sometimes you think that I have forgotten my relationship with Him. I haven’t. I consider God as that Supreme Being who will never allow me to be shattered. I also share God to my friends, and they respect me too when I talk about our church, our religion and all the great things God has done for us.

          So once again thank you…

          I had thought that it would be difficult to make this letter. You know that I’m not very expressive to you, and you might even be surprised at some of the things that I put here. But I’m thankful for the opportunity. I’ll never regret saying all these things to you… Now that I’m a graduate, I will try my very best to make all your sacrifices worth it.

          Thank you very much again! Congratulations to US!

Love you ma and dad,

Manna

pipi

BABALA: iba-iba ang epekto ng isinulat na ito sa ibang tao. may masusuka, matatwa, maaring may maiyak, at maaaring may ibang titindigan ng balahibo. kapag maselan ang iyong kalusugan, kayo po ay pinapayuhan na wag basahin ang mga sumusunod na salaysay. maraming salamat.

posible bang magpaalam sa isang taong di man lang alam na ikaw nga ay dumating?

ibinigay ko ang puso at kaluluwa ko sayo ngunit hindi mo malalaman… at kahit ganun pa man, ayos lang ako…masaya ako… kontento na akong tingnan ka na lamang sa malayo, na kahit sa panaginip man lamang ay nahahawakan ko ang pagkatao mo…

pangangalagaan kita…sa kahit ano mang unos o kapahamakan, aalalayan kita. proprotektahan kita. ngunit di mo kailangan malaman.

hindi mo malalaman…at kapag dumating ang takdang panahon na kailangang pakawalan ko na ang kung ano mang damdamin ang mayroon ako para sayo, di mo malalamang sa isip at puso ko’y matagal na kitang pinangangalagaan.

sa aking katahimikan, at maaaring sa iyo rin, minahal kita.

minamahal kita.

kaya’t heto, tanggapin mo ang alay ko. isang buhay ng katahimikan, pero puno ng pagmamahal para sayo…