you still there?

‘Cause when i try to talk to you
I feel like I’m not getting through to you
Where did we go wrong
It’s hard to be strong
When I talk…
When I talk to you

Do you know
How it feels
I hope that you know that it matters

I don’t know what happened. Okay so maybe I do.

I just miss talking to you. Or I miss talking to you, and you completely understanding what I’m talking about. Or I miss talking to you, and you completely feeling for me. I just miss that. All that. But now, I’m like, okay. I’m just shrugging it off as if I’m fine with it. I’m okay with it. I actually am not. But, I don’t know, I feel like I can’t reach out to you anymore. Or that maybe, you’ve just grown sick and tired of listening to me. Have you? Because I’m under this impression that we enjoy talking with each other. We enjoy understanding each other. We even enjoy reading each other’s minds. Damn I miss that. Aggh.

You think this is just, like, probably a phase in our friendship? Or are we really slowly slipping away? Sometimes I want to ask you if you are aware of what I’m in right now…Sigh. Of course your not. Why did I ask that in the first place. But maybe you are. But you’re just…simply ignoring it. Are you?

It’s pathetic that I should talk about this in my blog. But the thing is, you don’t even read my blogs. (Or atleast that’s what I think.) And, I can’t even talk about it with you. Straight. You and me, one-on-one. I can’t even confront you. Because you’ve detached yourself. And you have this invisible "Don’t even think about it"  sign placed up everytime I feel like talking to you. It’s frustrating, you know.

I know I can just let go of these and still be happy with my life. But the thing is, as long as I feel that there’s still this slightest chance that we can bring back things to how they really were, then I’m not giving up. I’m still trying to "feel you" right now and figuring out where I fit in in your life. Once I do, I’ll do the next step.