listen to a 20 year old b*tch about being single

It’s 8:08 pm and I’m still in my friggin’ office. Hmm…surprise surprise. Normally, since today is a Tuesday, I’d be at abellana with the team, probably jogging my ass off while they practice with their athlete stuff. However, since abellana (or Cebu Sports Center–to be politically correct) is having their grass "maintained", we’re not allowed to practice there for two whole friggin’ weeks. Argh. Do any of you guys have suggestions as to where else our team could strut their stuff coz, our first game is already THIS Saturday.

Anyway, so there, since I have nothing else to do, I’m hanging out at the office. Being the brat employee that I am, I used this free time to internet-blog-all-i-can and watch an episode of the series Supernatural. Of course because it’s for free…and there’s unlimited internet access, and there’s aircon, and–and I’m freakin running out of reasons why I aint going home yet. Whew. Because honestly, theres nothing–no one to go home to. That’s why I preoccupy myself with "busy and important grown-up stuff" because when there’s nothing to do, that’s just simply it. There’s absolutely nothing.

Bai Filz and I were just texting a while ago and I was whining about how boring life could get for a 20 year old single in a city like Cebu. Sure I’m still pretty young and there’s still a lot ahead of me. I’m not really super in a hurry to hook up with someone, but you know..sometimes, it’s boring and lonely. I know it’s fun that you could do whatever you want, whenever you want with no one telling you what to do, that it’s fun spending every cent of hard earned money on yourself and not on an anniversary gift or whatever it is that I would have spent for my beau in case I had one. But there are just–I don’t know, what do you call them–err…moments? Moments when you question yourself why the hell you’re not in a relationship yet when everyone on the friggin planet is painting the town red. Hmmm…tough question to answer.

But then again there are also times when I bask in my single blessedness because there’s not much emotional baggage. I mean, its sometimes fun hanging out with the rest of your other single friends and bitch about failed relationships or talk about which couple are having a fight or who recently broke up with who and thank the heavens above that you don’t have to worry about those  "insignificant" stuff because well, in the first place, you’re not committed.

Thing is, we single human beings also do wonder sometimes how life would be when you are committed with another human being. How it feels going home knowing you have someone eagerly waiting to find out how your day went. Or that how you’d hurry finishing your work (not like me who takes aaaalll the time in the world) because you don’t want to be late for a date. Or how would it feel walking in Ayala holding someone’s hand and having this invisible "Taken and loved by someone" sign. Okay I’m already scaring myself. Hmm… I’d better put a stop to this before I even mention "having to carry protection just in case" –OOPS did I just say it? Hahaha..Kidding! See??

I think I’m ready to go home now.